Day 34-sat in the "smoking" section...

..of a resturant tonight, it was at Red Lobster & we were on a waiting list for 35 mins, so i told the waitress "which ever section is open first, doesnt matter"..and there was a booth in the smoking section open, so we took it.

anyways, during the 35 mins of waiting, me and the boyfriend were sitting up at the bar, watching sports on the tv, having a drink...just relaxing...then about 20 mins later, i hear 2 ladys talking right behind me...i turn around, and these 2 ladys were RIGHT behind me, chain-smoking...it wasnt crowded or anything, so why they stood behind me, i have no idea..

anyways...we get our table, sit down, and the waiter put an ashtray on the table, and i PROUDLY turned to him and said "I dont smoke..we dont need that :-)"

FELT SO GOOD TO SAY THAT!! I said it so proudly too, because its the hardest & my most proud achievment I've ever had in my life!!

Anyways, the meal was fantastic, and about an hour later, i looked out the window, and saw a lady (in her 40's) stop & light up a smoke, and took that "after-a-meal" DEEP inhale & exhale, then continued to walk to her car with her family.

thats when i started to miss smoking. i still never got over the fact that i cant smoke after a meal, which is so hard to do, even though i TRULY dont want to smoke.

so for the first time in weeks, i had to fight the "smoking demon" tonight. im sure i'll be fine tomorrow though :)

~Jamie~