Day 14-big fight, hard to handle...
Day 14....this is a milestone for me (3 days then 7 then 14 then 1 month: those are milestones)
So i am very proud of myself for achieving this goal!! :)
Well, i went to bed at 1am last night, had a lot of trouble sleeping. I kept stressing over the new apartment, are our applications going to be accepted or denied? If its denied, thats a REALLY bad sign that we wont be able to move out to ANYWHERE for a while, and thats scares me!!!!! Then I started thinking about how me and the boyfriend havent slept in the same bed for months now (hes an EXTREMELY loud snorer and often wakes me up from another room, let alone, laying next to him.) I know its because hes about 75 pds overweight and if he would stop drinking soda all of the time and actually join the gym (in which he has a free 2 week pass to) then maybe his fat ass would shed a pound or two.
Anyways, I slept for a total of 3 1/2 hours when my alarm went off: its time to get up and go to that damn First Communion thing for his nephew. So, I wake up, i go out to the living room with the boyfriend is, and I start to ask him "hey...is there a dinner or something after church?" and he IMMEDIATLY responded with "I fuckin KNEW you weren't gonna fuckin go with me!!!"
I was in shock!! All i was going to ask him was if i could maybe stay home and catch a few more hours of sleep then have him pick me up for the dinner or whatever (if they had one), later. But instead, he got pissed off at me and when he said that, I just turned around and walked away.
That was at 8am.......he left at 10am.....its now 11pm......and hes still not home. Where hes at, I have no clue. Either he doesnt care to call to tell me hes okay, or hes dead from a car accident or something. Either way, nothing I can do about it, so fuck it....no point in stressing. I dont wanna see him tonight anyways. He pissed me off.
So, thats that. I've been buring off my energy all day by cleaning the apartment and such. Trying to turn that negative energy into something useful. Well, its almost time for bed, so I'm going to watch tv (which i havent been able to do in WEEKS cuz the boyfriend has the tv everyday, no matter what.) So im going to enjoy tv for once, and just chill out.
Laterz!
~Jamie~
So i am very proud of myself for achieving this goal!! :)
Well, i went to bed at 1am last night, had a lot of trouble sleeping. I kept stressing over the new apartment, are our applications going to be accepted or denied? If its denied, thats a REALLY bad sign that we wont be able to move out to ANYWHERE for a while, and thats scares me!!!!! Then I started thinking about how me and the boyfriend havent slept in the same bed for months now (hes an EXTREMELY loud snorer and often wakes me up from another room, let alone, laying next to him.) I know its because hes about 75 pds overweight and if he would stop drinking soda all of the time and actually join the gym (in which he has a free 2 week pass to) then maybe his fat ass would shed a pound or two.
Anyways, I slept for a total of 3 1/2 hours when my alarm went off: its time to get up and go to that damn First Communion thing for his nephew. So, I wake up, i go out to the living room with the boyfriend is, and I start to ask him "hey...is there a dinner or something after church?" and he IMMEDIATLY responded with "I fuckin KNEW you weren't gonna fuckin go with me!!!"
I was in shock!! All i was going to ask him was if i could maybe stay home and catch a few more hours of sleep then have him pick me up for the dinner or whatever (if they had one), later. But instead, he got pissed off at me and when he said that, I just turned around and walked away.
That was at 8am.......he left at 10am.....its now 11pm......and hes still not home. Where hes at, I have no clue. Either he doesnt care to call to tell me hes okay, or hes dead from a car accident or something. Either way, nothing I can do about it, so fuck it....no point in stressing. I dont wanna see him tonight anyways. He pissed me off.
So, thats that. I've been buring off my energy all day by cleaning the apartment and such. Trying to turn that negative energy into something useful. Well, its almost time for bed, so I'm going to watch tv (which i havent been able to do in WEEKS cuz the boyfriend has the tv everyday, no matter what.) So im going to enjoy tv for once, and just chill out.
Laterz!
~Jamie~
posted by Baba @ 8:46 PM
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