Day 5 -hmm..

not sure what to make of day 5, really.

ive been in this blahhhhhhhhhhhhh mood. not happy, but not sad.....just in a weird kind of numb mood.

i've been more focused lately, clear headed. But my cravings to smoke is still here. Not a physical craving, just a mental craving. i think the reason is because i never had that "one last smoke" before i quit. i just up-and-stopped. i dont think i mentally prepared myself to stop. i just had the WANT to stop (which is the most important thing to have....cuz if you dont have the want, you will fail!)

but the messed up part is that now i AM mentally prepared to stay smoke free from all reading on what smoking does to a person.

And I love feeling so healthy, i love the extra money in pocket, i love the way my clothes and apartment smell, the way i can SMELL EVERYTHING now, and the way food tastes is so much better now ,too.

I'm feeling a bit fatigued all of sudden. I think i'll lay down on the couch or something for a bit. Its weird how yesterday i had so much damn energy, and today i dont have much at all.

Hmm...weird. ::shrugs::

~Jamie~