Day 26

Well, i've busy working out at the gym, and doin some shit for the new apartment (getting prepared), and my not-smoking has been going really good, some days, i dont even THINK about smoking or cigerattes. I had re-arrange my life around not smoking, but i feel SO good without my lungs being full of smoke & tar.

but the past few days i've been feeling weird....its amazing how that drug (nicotene) can have a hold on a person & play tricks with the body.

Some mornings, I wake up, feeling like I smoked. My lungs are heavy-feeling, im coughing up mucas, and all this is after I have had a dream that I was smoking.

So sometimes i wake up feeling quilty for no reason, and it fucks with my head...if i FEEL like I smoked, and if i dreamed that i WAS smoking...and I feel quilty about..(the first thing that comes into my head is..)fuck it...might as well smoke then!

But then a couple seconds later, i think of all the time, pain, and hard work & health that I have gained since I stopped smoking on April 11th. I'll be DAMNED if im going to give all that up and treat my body & my health like shit.

So, I'm staying strong!!! :) Its still a battle, and still a War that I have to win. But I will keep fighting this demon!!

KEEP THE QUIT!!

~Jamie~